Calendar Girl Blog: Reality
Here is one of my realities.
It is our first and perhaps only time we'll meet. She is around 35. Within 2 minutes of polite chit-chat she tells me that she has just had a very routine blood test. The results indicate that she has breast cancer. She is fearfully waiting for another appointment date to arrive. She is shocked, terrified and unfocused. Her family is very worried. She needed someone to talk to.
I was not expecting this. Our meeting was for other reasons. But because of Breast of Canada, women, many of them strangers to me, stop me on the street, in the grocery store, in my garden to tell me similar stories. The fear in their eyes is the hardest part to witness. I have no solution. I listen. Touch them gently. Encourage them to breath.
Someday's I feel like a sponge for other peoples pain. When I started this project I thought I was filling a big gap with much needed breast health information. It never crossed my mind that I would also become a touchstone for potential and newly diagnosed breast cancer patients.
Sometimes I'm not very bright.
This is when the project gets hard. I'm at the beginning stages of at least four long months of grunt work. After six year's of executing this project, I still cannot pay myself any wage for my effort. I feel selfish for complaining, crazy for carrying on so long and crushed by the weight of obligation. I've created something that is vitally important to a few thousand wonderful people. But in the larger context of the big ole world, Breast of Canada is but a drop in the 'bleeding heart' bucket.
I read the business section of the paper each day. I know that billions of dollars are spent on bullshit ventures that benefits no one but shareholders. I wonder when, if, how a project that actually touches a person deeply, that exists to benefit people and the planet could cut through the crap and be supported. Who out there has the bucks to get involved. Who has the courage to be a patron.
Calendar Girl was recently told that Breast of Canada is not a good investment because there is no financial return. After she removed her wrist from her mouth and surveyed the marks left by her teeth, she practiced what she preaches. Breath Calendar Girl, breath.
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It is our first and perhaps only time we'll meet. She is around 35. Within 2 minutes of polite chit-chat she tells me that she has just had a very routine blood test. The results indicate that she has breast cancer. She is fearfully waiting for another appointment date to arrive. She is shocked, terrified and unfocused. Her family is very worried. She needed someone to talk to.
I was not expecting this. Our meeting was for other reasons. But because of Breast of Canada, women, many of them strangers to me, stop me on the street, in the grocery store, in my garden to tell me similar stories. The fear in their eyes is the hardest part to witness. I have no solution. I listen. Touch them gently. Encourage them to breath.
Someday's I feel like a sponge for other peoples pain. When I started this project I thought I was filling a big gap with much needed breast health information. It never crossed my mind that I would also become a touchstone for potential and newly diagnosed breast cancer patients.
Sometimes I'm not very bright.
This is when the project gets hard. I'm at the beginning stages of at least four long months of grunt work. After six year's of executing this project, I still cannot pay myself any wage for my effort. I feel selfish for complaining, crazy for carrying on so long and crushed by the weight of obligation. I've created something that is vitally important to a few thousand wonderful people. But in the larger context of the big ole world, Breast of Canada is but a drop in the 'bleeding heart' bucket.
I read the business section of the paper each day. I know that billions of dollars are spent on bullshit ventures that benefits no one but shareholders. I wonder when, if, how a project that actually touches a person deeply, that exists to benefit people and the planet could cut through the crap and be supported. Who out there has the bucks to get involved. Who has the courage to be a patron.
Calendar Girl was recently told that Breast of Canada is not a good investment because there is no financial return. After she removed her wrist from her mouth and surveyed the marks left by her teeth, she practiced what she preaches. Breath Calendar Girl, breath.
Calendar Girl
Tags: Calendar Girl Blog, calendar girl blog, Breast of Canada Calendar, Sue Richards, middle of normal. Guelph, education. Pleeeeze order a Breast of Canada today. Find out what’s going on in Guelph, the birthplace of topfree Ontario.
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